Perfection

My mornings usually consist of me attempting to avoid all mirrors until I’ve had a shower and sorted myself out. Even after that looking in a mirror is so disheartening, seriously even out of the house you can’t avoid mirrors, shops have one facing you every time you turn around!

When I do find myself in front of a mirror I point out every flaw I can see, I even find flaws that aren’t even there.

 I know nearly every other girl does the same, it’s easy for anyone to find multiple flaws in their appearance, the thing is, the majority of the time no one else can see them.

I guess at least once in our lives everyone wishes they were 'perfect'…

Boyfriends constantly tell us we look perfect, but they have to do that… don’t they? According to mine they don’t, but to be honest when I look at the girls on the front page of magazines I don’t see how he can say I’m 'perfect'.

The usual thing people say is perfection comes from what’s on the inside but if perfection is deemed one particular way then I don’t think that anyone can really be what is widely agreed as 'perfect'.

However, I believe everyone can be perfect in their own way and to their own potential, but to reach ultimate 'perfection' as I don’t think it really exists, it’s just a pipe dream. People should be happy with who they are, I know girls and boys who have went to extremes to try and make themselves live up to this idea of ‘perfection’. It’s not worth it, at all.

This is a picture of ‘Britain and Irelands Next Top Model’ winner Jade Thompson. Jade’s freckles, red hair and the fact that she is of a mixed race, resulted in her being bullied. As well her noticing her own ‘flaws’ she had other pointing them out to her too, luckily she got past that, she realised that what many deemed as flaws others deemed as unique.

“I spent years wishing I didn’t have a face full of freckles and ginger hair until I suddenly realized I couldn’t change it so I needed to learn to live with it,” Jade Thompson.

Don’t ever let anyone say you’re not perfect, because if we were all to reach that pipe dream of 'perfection', then we would all just be a race of robots.

Leanne x

Meet Charlie

Charlie is my beloved teddy bear bought to me by my wonderful boyfriend. I love him lots J he is extremely cuddly and soft. He sleeps in our bed and according to Thomas I am like a little child because I cuddle Charlie a through the night and don’t let him go.  He is the best teddy ever and goes everywhere with meJ.



Charlie's first picture. It was taken when Thomas gave him to me for Christmas 2010. He was all wrapped up in Christmas paper and as I tore the paper off I could see his wee head poking out. He was so cute and I instantly fell in love with him.


I have always loved teddies!!





Charlies first camping trip. He is scared of the dark so I let him borrow my torch for night time. He looks so cosy and was great company when Thomas kept me up all night snoring!

Charlie on the way to Spain

Charlie on the way home

 Charlies first plane journey. Yes he came on the plane with me, there was no way I was risking him going in my suitcase incase it got lost (I'm freakishly obsessed with this teddy). My brother thought I was crazy bringing Charie on the plane.





I know that it is quite immature of me to be so attatched to a teddy, but I think everyone has something they are greatly attatched to. Especialy when someone you care about gives you gift, something they have put thought into, you kind of grow an attatchment to it quite easily. This teddy certainly isn't the dearest thing Thomas has ever bought me, but it is one of the most meaningfull and sentimental. Its not just a post about my teddy, the pictures also show mine and Thomas' first Christmas, first camping trip and first holiday together.

 Its always the sentimental things we value the most in life, the ones that carry all memories.

Leanne x

The Gym: For Athletes or Posers?

Just something for the girls to look at ;)

Ok so my lovely boyfriend has decided to start the gym. At the start I couldn’t wait, I was like YEAH!!! My boy is going to lose weight, tone up and get a six pack….stunning!!! How wrong was I?!?! Yes, he does go to the gym and yes, he does try very hard, but the aftermath just isn’t worth it.

I dread to hear him after the gym as with the way he talks you would think he’d been in a ring for three hours with ‘Mike Tyson’. The other day he moaned his arms were too sore to even lift the phone to talk to me. Funny that, seeing as they didn’t seem that sore when he was lifting his pizza to shove in his mouth. Then you get him moaning of legs begging me to drag him up the stairs to as his Legs are too sore….this doesn’t just go one for the day, it goes on for at least THREE!!!

It seems that a lot of men like to make a big moan and groan even about the gym. If you’ve been to a gym you will have defiantly seen these men….

You have that one, well-built guy, who will stand in front of the mirrors constantly tensing up, just checking himself out, and won’t lift a single weight until a hot girl walks by. Then he will lift the biggest weight possible and impress the girl, with is fake tanned muscles. You know the type….Mike the Situation and Van Diesel are classic stereotypes of this, they fire in the protein shakes and pump iron like mad but it’s all for the ladies.

Then you have the dorkey looking kid who has a body , all you can think is; who did he steal those muscles  off? It’s like someone has tried to create a man that looks like a cross between Sheldon from the Big Bang Theory and The Rock.

You then have the ones who go at it like mad and you can hear them grunt all over the place, their face go as red as Santa’s suit and the pain they are in looks like they are being squished my weight, never mind lifting it. Got to admire the people though, they get the results.

Then we come to the flirt…much like the first guy mentioned but this one scouts around the place for girls, chatting them up and the clothes these guys wear are just as tight as the girls. They also spend more time talking to the guys about their ‘experience’ (which is mostly made up) with women (that probally don’t even exist).

Lastly we have the girls….the ultra-sporty ones who are in it for the fitness, the group of girlies that run at 5mph on the treadmill whilst gossiping about everything and then you have the women who thinks she’s a man,  spends all her time doing weights tensing in the mirror grunting like man and checking out all the girls.

Just my view J

Leanne x

Patience Will Bring You Love 1.0

Starting a new school isn’t easy for anyone, especially me, lets just say I’m not the best at making new friends. As I walked in the doors of my new school I was greeted by a smiling face, “your form class is in room fourteen” the secretary said, “don’t be intimidated by the school, it’s always hard for first years’. It took me a second to process what she had just said; First year? First year!?!? This woman actually thinks I’m in first year? No, I’m sixteen and I’m about to go into lower sixth, not first year!!

It’s fair to say that there was embarrassment on both ends, as I explained to her I was actually going into sixth year. I could later hear her muttering to another member of staff about my height, being five foot isn’t that small....... is it? Great, just another place where people think I’m different.

The first day wasn’t too bad, I kept myself to myself mostly and didn’t do much, I actually started to miss my old school a bit, at least I had friends there. What I did notice about the school was how many people were coupled off, strange; I don’t think I have ever had a proper boyfriend.

Why is it that every time you try to sleep, all your mind wants to do is to think about absolutely everything? It happens to me all the time, and tonight the consistent question that comes to my head is…I wonder if I will ever get married. Stupid question, I know, but I always wonder if I will ever find a proper boyfriend, who will like me enough to one day ask me to marry him. I never have much luck with boys. Maybe I shouldn’t be looking, they always say love comes up unexpectedly; maybe I will just have to be patient.

To be continued....

Patience Will Bring You Love

Patience Will Bring You Love, is going to be a series of short posts, that I am going to write about a girl who wants to find her perfect man. Some of it will be based on my own personal experience, some of other people's experiences and some of it will just be a fairytale.

I really hope you enjoy it.

Leanne x

X Factor or Soap Factor???

Well we all know that Frankie Cocozza has been axed from the X Factor! It’s all over the newspapers, all over Facebook and Twitter, its EVERYWHERE?!?!

Have you actually thought about the real reason why Frankie has been axed? Sure it’s easy enough for the officials to claim he broke a' golden rule' and was participating in drugs, but weren’t they already aware of Frankie’s behaviour? After all, the one thing Gary said that was going to make sure Frankie didn’t do was; ‘behave’. 

This kid had auditioned for this show, as well as Britain’s Got Talent before, and he didn’t even make it to the judges, so what was new this time? It certainly hasn’t been his voice that’s improved! No, Frankie was the 'chosen one' ,for this years ‘joke’ act. We all thought it was going to be Goldie who would follow in the footsteps of Wagner and Jedward, but no we were tricked and now it has been seen that, Frankie, was this year’s ENTERTAINMENT FACTOR.

I myself am not a fan of Cocozza, but even I can see that he is not the only teenager to be going out on the town and getting up to no good. X Factor can also see this; if they really wanted Frankie on that show then they would not show scenes of him out drinking and partying. Although they want him to have that bad boy image, they wouldn’t have let it go that far.

Frankie Cocozza was just another way for the X Factor to get itself in the headlines. The producers knew Simon Cowell’s departure was going to hit them hard, so this was their back up plan. They wanted Cocozza to be out in the public eye and getting snapped up by the big tabloid papers. Each week he was also being given songs way out of his vocal range and style, like Louis said; he is never going to be a star.

Poor kid, he was being fed a dream that would last as long as it took the producers to come up with a new plan….and so they did. Upon deciding to bring back the first four acts that were axed by the judges on the first live show, the producers have caused a great amount of anger. Viewers do not think it is fair that the chosen acts have been able to bypass the first six weeks….in their eyes, if they have to bring someone back….all the ex acts from the live shows should have the chance of a return.

X Factor is as much as a soap as it is a reality show!

Leanne x

FLASHBACKS!!!!!...................................

Ok so, ‘FLASHBACKS’,  is going to be a wee mini-series of blogs, that I intend to post every so oftenshowing some old, fun memories of my life ,and that of my friends. J

This post is about two people who have always been very important to me…

                                                                 Dale, me and Kelly (2009)

This picture is extremely valuable to me as it is one of the rare occasions where someone actually managed to get us three to stand still, together in front of a camera!!!

Me Dale and Kelly were once inseparable… we spent every day together and if we weren’t together we were texting each other. Good times. We were we freaks, as even though you can’t see Dales other hand, we are all wearing the same multi coloured braclet. J

Friendships really do come and go and it’s sad the way they can never stay completely the same. I went through so much with these two and I don’t reckon I’d change it for anything.

Even though we are older and have moved into different friendship groups, it doesn’t mean we’ve lost our memories, I know I constantly think back to those days and wish  I was fifteen again, but that can’t happen, at least they are still always there for me when I need them…

Never forget who your old friends are,

Cherish all those times together,

Then no matter how far apart you are,

You will always be, friends forever.

Love you two.

Leanne x

NOVEMBER!!!

Ahhhhhh!! NOVEMBER IS HERE!!!


Ok so, normaly when November arrives I start to get excited, nervous, happy, stressed and hopefully by the end of it the festive mood will start to kick in. I don't know what it is about this time of the year but it just seems to get my extremely emotional!!

I start to panic, thinking....'what if I dont get everyones Christmas presents in?, what if I dont get my uni work done? and what if I dont have enough money to cover me until my next student loan comes in?!?!' ahhhhh It's just soooooo stressfull!!!!

On the bright side.....the cold weather means warm coats, woolly hats, scarves and gloves, hot chocolates in the cold and sitting by a warm fire :). Bliss :) PLUS DVD nights start to seem a lot more appealing than a night on the town!

Bring it on November....


Leanne x

Being Small and Aiming High

The first thing people normally notice about me is my height, I'm rather small for my age being only 5'1, and unfortunately, once I reveal to people that I'm 19, the usual repsone is "No!!! You look about 12!!" So yeah, Im a shorty and quite quiet until you really get to know me (I was once nicknamed 'mousey' when i started my new school).

Normally around new people im shy and lost in a daydream with zero confidence, but once I've known them for  while I can be a cocky wee brat :). Despite this i spend most of my time aroun Uni in the background just trugging along.

BUT

I have high aims for my life (which i will gradually disclose) and I want to keep track of everything I do in reaching these aims, just to see myself how much I change as a person. Therefore this blog is about my own personal growth and will hopefully be interesting to anyone reading this. It has a strong personal value to me and I hope you enjoy it. :)

Leanne x